A Conversation With God

I felt the blood rush to my face

Is this how bittersweet tastes?

I lost my vision, it starts to blur

I wonder how I've come this far...

I shake it off as once before

Never have I lost someone I adore

I hold the hand of the man I love

She is his daughter sent from above

I know our pain is so familiar yet unfair

I know the refrain of guilt lingers there

I can never hold my baby girl to me

She ceases to move, never beginning to breathe

How do you replace such a fragile life?

The hurt so strong and heavy in strife

What could I have done that others had failed?

I get on my knees, "God help me!"

I knelt...

Wiping away the tears from another day of grief

God turns and says "I am here for you. I bring you relief."

I ask, "But how could you deny me such a beautiful gift?

Why didn't you protect her as she began to wilt?"

He replies, "My child you have it all wrong.

I would never take her from you... She is your heart song!

I continue to give all life free will.

I allow you to your choices and that's always been our deal."

So as I go back to the guilt in my soul

I can't help but wonder...

Would that be a reasonable role?

Had I demanded someone to listen,

Had I refused to be denied...

Would it have helped erase these tears from my eyes?

I stand here again at square one

Nothing can be repaired or undone

I watch her fly on wings of angels as she blows me a kiss

I thank God for miracles even in all the moments missed...

Written by: Ashley Ruebin