38 Weeks Later

Molli at 10.4 weeks - Her precious foot left such a big print on our hearts!

It has been 38 weeks since my world came crumbling down around me. I couldn't breathe, everything was so surreal, and the pain was so strong that it numbed my senses. I remember being in such shock... Such pain! I can recall it all as if it were yesterday.

Mommy misses you more than anything in this world. I would give it all away just to have you back. Daddy misses you too. He hurts when thinking of his tiny dancer now dancing on those heavenly clouds.

Molli, you are loved always! You are our baby girl forever. One day we will finally hold you in our arms. ♥ CMR ♥

37 Weeks Later

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Crimsyn Molli Ruebin ... this is the month that we first got a positive pregnancy test and discovered we were officially pregnant with our baby girl.  We couldn't believe this miracle.  We had prayed for a baby for years (especially a bouncing baby girl).

Now it's been 37 weeks without my baby girl here with me and her Daddy. We miss you angel. We love you always. ♥ CMR ♥

36 Weeks Later

 

I will walk the steps you will never take here on earth, I will sing the lullabies you never had the chance to memorize, and I will listen to the sound of the rain on our window pane and wipe silent tears.

9 months, 36 weeks, what could this mean for me, for your Daddy, for your baby brother to be? We miss you, Molli. We will always love you and wish you had been given the chance to be here on earth with us.

The pain from losing a child is indescribable and unimaginable. It's one of the hardest things ever handed to me in this life and something I will never be able to "deal" with. It's a coping process and is based on how each individual day hits you.
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Today I miss you, tomorrow the same, next week too, and the years to come will never soften the pain.
♥ CMR ♥

35 Weeks Later

Today Daddy and I have been going through your nursery and outfitting it for your baby brother's arrival. Daddy had to step out and wipe a few silent tears away... Mommy didn't know this until she happened upon him sitting there mourning you. Still 35 weeks later, our hearts are broken for you sweet angel. Mommy had her crying spell earlier today when she stumbled upon some of the hospital bills from the day they took you from me. It's hard and it never gets easier... we only become more numbed to it and eventually it just hurts too much to remember. We miss you so much, Molli. You are a thought in the corner of our minds, a piece missing from our hearts, and a deep breath we never seem capable of catching. Until a day... ♥ CMR ♥