30 Weeks Later

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30 weeks have come and gone... Mommy doesn't like counting them anymore. It seems the more I count them, the further away my memories get. I want to always remember the joy, hope, and happiness you gave us! The tiny dancer on the u/s screen that made us giggle each time she would wiggle for her Mommy and Daddy, the heartbeat on the other side of the Doppler, and the flutters felt so often in my tummy! But I don't want to remember the hurt your leaving caused us... To this day I cry and grieve when thinking of the loss we had to suffer from losing you, our baby girl! We miss you always and will love you forever! Our tiny dancer in Heaven... Mommy and Daddy wish for you to be here with us every single day.
♥ CMR ♥

29 Weeks Later

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29 weeks and very little has changed. I will always miss you and forever love you. Daddy's baby girl, Mommy's tiny dancer, Heaven's most beautiful angel, and by far the brightest star in the sky tonight. My heart aches for the memories we will never make together and grieves for the brief memories that I do have here with me, that I reflect upon daily.

There is so much I want to say to you if only... Your baby brother is growing strong. He loves laying by "your favorite spot" in Mommy's tummy. He has become quite the ninja you were. I think you taught him some moves before Jesus sent him down to us. He looks a lot like you too. It makes Mommy so happy to have him here with us... Our Ohana will always be missing a beautiful baby girl complete with her Zebra MudPie outfit and pink bows... But her memory will always be kept alive by those who love her the most.

We love you angel! ♥ CMR ♥

28 Weeks Later

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28 weeks... Mommy and Daddy miss you so much. Daddy put your baby brother's bouncer seat together this past weekend and it reminded me of you with the prettiest zebra design. I thought your brother would like having it too since I know you would have. We love you baby girl. Wish you were here to know Baby Try! We wish we had been given the chance to know you too. Sleep well my angel. ♥

27 Weeks Later

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27 weeks later and I realize that our God only takes the best, baby girl. He has a tiny princess in the sky with him now. Even though we would rather have had you here with us... I'm allowed to be selfish! You are my first baby, my first daughter, and the reason I wanted to live again. When I lost you a part of me died... a part of me that I have yet to reclaim or revive. Perhaps I never will?

I grieve for you so and speak your name daily. I talk to your baby brother all the time about you and tell him how I wished he could have known you. Daddy hurts for you too, he just doesn't like to show it like I do.

Today is your day sweet angel... Mondays will forever be for my Molli. We had to say goodbye to you on a Monday morning and it has never been the same. Regrets, I have a few... Mistakes, I have many. Mommy misses you so much tiny dancer. I love you to the moon and back, until a day... ♥

26 Weeks Later

Mommy thinks about you with each passing day and not one of those days go by where I don't say your name. It's been 26 weeks and our hearts are still broken. I know there will never come a day where it's easier to talk about you, when it'll be easier to miss you, or when I can finally say "I've moved on." We miss you so much Mall bear! You are going to always be our baby girl and I will forever hurt for you... for those late night feedings, up all night crying spells, laughter filled memories that could have been made, and to watch you grow up into a young lady. I will always hurt for those moments missed and memories stolen. 26 weeks and it still doesn't get easier to say "there were photographs I wanted to take, things I wanted to show you, sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes. Who could love you like this?" Mommy and Daddy's angel... we will never forget you and we love you always. ♥