Today has been all kinds of rough and upsetting for Mommy. I miss you so much! We would have been 9 months today... 36 weeks and 2 days to be exact. I wish I had you back more than I wish for anything else in this life. I don't ever see my heart healing 100%. I know I'll never be the same... It has been 20 weeks since we last saw you. These past 5 months have been so trying on me and your Daddy. We fight over missing you, we cry over missing you, and we look back on what ifs as we miss you. It's been so very difficult. I wouldn't wish the death of a child on any parent... not even my worst enemy. A baby is a baby regardless of when their time comes to an end. It wouldn't have mattered if we had carried you the full 40 weeks or whether we had to say goodbye just shy of 17 weeks...... you are our daughter, our baby, a beautiful child that God blessed us with. You are the miracle we prayed for for 5 long years. You are the promise that we are parents and I know that no matter what comes our way in the years to pass... we will always be parents by you, our Crimsyn Molli Ruebin. Mommy and Daddy miss you! I celebrate 12 weeks (3 months) of pregnancy with your baby brother today but at the same time I grieve for the 5 months I've missed out on life with you. Please understand and always know that you are never going to be replaced. Your brother will know about you and the hope you gave to Mommy and Daddy by just being here for those four brief months. The moments we have with you will last forever in our minds and will be told for years to come as bedtime stories to your baby siblings. They will know that they have a sister in heaven watching over them. Our precious angel gone too soon. We love you sweet baby! ♥
♥ Happy 5 month birthday in Heaven, Molli! We miss you ♥
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