I felt like writing to you as Try snoozes in his bassinet...
Your baby brother is such a character, Molli. He will stare at the clovers decorating our walls and just crack up laughing. I wonder, does he know that's his symbol from us? He must! He just enjoys clovers too much.
I wish we could have had you both here with us. What a wonderful life that would have been. Both of my babies are very special to me in very different ways.
...
You showed us it was possible! We were so scared because we had never gotten so far before... You showed us how to have such naive faith and trust... Pure innocence. You taught us that it is okay to want certain dreams in your life, it is ok to drop your guard from excitement of your "finally" coming to be, you allowed us to be parents for 4 months... and always! You paved the way! My strong, sweet, tiny dancer!
Your brother showed us what it feels like to open our hearts and love again. How to trust again with hopes of health and new life at the end of a heartbreaking, long journey. He has made us complete. We actually almost named him Journey! But Try seemed so much more appropriate. It was the "try" again that lead us through the journey, after all. He makes us so happy and proud. I know you can see that.
We love you, baby girl. You served a grand purpose. You weren't meant to stay and some days that is ok, Mommy understands. Other days, I am angry and I feel jilted because I miss you so much. I feel forever bi-polar drudging around in grief but those that know me best, know my heart. There is a piece forever placed among the stars and clouds. A piece that will always dance with angels, and that... Well, that is also ok with me. ♥
Your baby brother is such a character, Molli. He will stare at the clovers decorating our walls and just crack up laughing. I wonder, does he know that's his symbol from us? He must! He just enjoys clovers too much.
I wish we could have had you both here with us. What a wonderful life that would have been. Both of my babies are very special to me in very different ways.
...
You showed us it was possible! We were so scared because we had never gotten so far before... You showed us how to have such naive faith and trust... Pure innocence. You taught us that it is okay to want certain dreams in your life, it is ok to drop your guard from excitement of your "finally" coming to be, you allowed us to be parents for 4 months... and always! You paved the way! My strong, sweet, tiny dancer!
Your brother showed us what it feels like to open our hearts and love again. How to trust again with hopes of health and new life at the end of a heartbreaking, long journey. He has made us complete. We actually almost named him Journey! But Try seemed so much more appropriate. It was the "try" again that lead us through the journey, after all. He makes us so happy and proud. I know you can see that.
We love you, baby girl. You served a grand purpose. You weren't meant to stay and some days that is ok, Mommy understands. Other days, I am angry and I feel jilted because I miss you so much. I feel forever bi-polar drudging around in grief but those that know me best, know my heart. There is a piece forever placed among the stars and clouds. A piece that will always dance with angels, and that... Well, that is also ok with me. ♥
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