Molli... it hurts Mommy and Daddy when we see baby girl stuff in stores. Zebra print just about brings us to tears everytime. It still hurts when I hear someone say their daughter is the light of their life. Mommy's not jealous or envious of those blessed with a daughter... that is just not how I roll, but instead I am just saddened and broken because I was never given the chance to know mine. I miss you with every breath I take, and my heart breaks when I remember our last moments with you. I lose my breath, it shortens and I can't catch it... I hurt for you so much.
I have poured out my heart to a screen for the past 33 weeks in hopes that it would help me to heal but I fear the worst... I fear that I will never be able to move on.
I have your baby brother to live for now and I thank God for him daily. He looks like his big sister and just this past week he gave us a little smile on his ultrasound scan. He loves music and dancing just like you and he gives Mommy the most awful heartburn JUST as you did too! LOL! I can't wait to meet him and tell him all about you! I look forward to holding him and never putting him down.
Mommy and Daddy miss you, baby girl. That will never change... but my tears for you have gotten harder to cry. It's time that I focus on your baby brother more now. He's trying to make an early debut just as you did but this time Mommy's new doctors caught it in time. Please know we will never forget you, Molli. You are our princess... forever. There is none like you, our tiny dancer. <3 CMR <3
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