24 weeks have passed us by so quickly. I never imagined I would be able to stand again after losing you yet here I am... We miss you and still cry for you daily. Today was hard on Mommy because we came to the milestone where we lost you but this time it is in our pregnancy with your baby brother. Mommy was so worried all day even though I know we are taking the medicine needed to keep your baby brother alive in Mommy. I would give everything I own to have known then what I know now. We would have stayed on our medicine with you too, to ensure your safe arrival. Mommy regrets stopping that medicine with you... every single day. Doctors do not know everything. They are trying to get Mommy to stop it with your baby brother but I refuse! It's the reason he is still here after all!
Molli, ...please forgive Mommy. I didn't intentionally fail you, my baby girl. I would have fought tooth and nail to save your life had I known! After 6 months, I still get angry at myself and my doctors. We could have had our dream, our first born, our daughter... here with us! They failed Mommy too. I trusted them.
We love you angel. We longed to hold you and couldn't wait for June 2012 then. Now it breaks my heart to see this month arrive... R.I.P. Mall. I wish I knew how to let you go but I know you are the only hope left in my soul. The hope that dreams do come true, even if they're not exactly how you had originally planned.
Goodnight Mall Bear! Mommy, Daddy, and your brothers love you so very much. We miss you more than words could ever express. Daddy's little girl and Mommy's tiny dancer! ♥
24 weeks have passed us by so quickly. I never imagined I would be able to stand again after losing you yet here I am... We miss you and still cry for you daily. Today was hard on Mommy because we came to the milestone where we lost you but this time it is in our pregnancy with your baby brother. Mommy was so worried all day even though I know we are taking the medicine needed to keep your baby brother alive in Mommy. I would give everything I own to have known then what I know now. We would have stayed on our medicine with you too, to ensure your safe arrival. Mommy regrets stopping that medicine with you... every single day. Doctors do not know everything. They are trying to get Mommy to stop it with your baby brother but I refuse! It's the reason he is still here after all!
Molli, ...please forgive Mommy. I didn't intentionally fail you, my baby girl. I would have fought tooth and nail to save your life had I known! After 6 months, I still get angry at myself and my doctors. We could have had our dream, our first born, our daughter... here with us! They failed Mommy too. I trusted them.
We love you angel. We longed to hold you and couldn't wait for June 2012 then. Now it breaks my heart to see this month arrive... R.I.P. Mall. I wish I knew how to let you go but I know you are the only hope left in my soul. The hope that dreams do come true, even if they're not exactly how you had originally planned.
Goodnight Mall Bear! Mommy, Daddy, and your brothers love you so very much. We miss you more than words could ever express. Daddy's little girl and Mommy's tiny dancer! ♥
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