23 Weeks Later

It's been 23 weeks now... We would have been 39+ weeks and your due date is tomorrow! Today is very hard for your Mama. I am so broken. I miss you more than anything and would give everything I have to have you back here with me. We prayed for a baby girl, a daughter (after years of trying to conceive). When God answered our prayers with you, we knew you were meant to be even though it was so hard to believe... and then something horrible occured with Mommy's hormone levels, you were lost at 16.2 weeks, and it's been a downward spiral since your death. We miss you so much. It will never be the same. We love you more than we could love anyone... You will always be our first baby, our first daughter. We want you back but that's only because the denial is so strong. It just can't be that I'm pregnant again and with your baby brother at that. I don't understand God sometimes, I'm afraid I never will, but one day I hope to have your baby sister so that I can have a glimpse of what it would have been like to have you, a daughter, a best friend, a shopping buddy, Daddy's little girl, and a mini me! I pray every single day for that healing that will come from another baby girl filling our heart with renewed hope and love. Mommy and Daddy love you baby girl. You have such a special place in our heart... you will NEVER be forgotten. ♥ CMR ♥