It was so hard today to talk about you to a customer. I told her that your Mommy is due in December and that we pray for ANOTHER baby girl so that we can pass down all the beautiful clothes and toys of yours to her. Then that same customer asked "How far apart in age will they be?" I froze, stuttered, tears filled my eyes, and I looked down at my register... Too much to explain. I lifted my head and said, "They will be almost one year apart!" I didn't mention that you were in heaven and your sister is on her way here... I didn't tell of your passing or tragic ending here on earth... I failed to mention that you never had the chance to wear those beautiful clothes or play with your toys. I couldn't dare explain... I simply said "God has blessed us twice in one year. We had a beautiful baby girl in the first week of January and found out we were expecting again by the end of March." With a smile on my lips and a teardrop sitting still in my eye, I realized that it didn't matter how your story began or ended here on earth with us, it is the fact that we were blessed enough to be able to tell your story at all. You are our miracle of hope always. We love you so very much baby girl. 16 blessed, beautiful, and blissful weeks of carrying you and now 16 empty, sad, and heavy weeks without you... We miss you angel!
Happy 16 week Birthday in Heaven "Mall!" ♥
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